Learning to Write

About six weeks into school and I'm finding that I really suck at English (LOL). Not speaking it but, writing it. Commas, semicolons, periods, sentences, etc.; all of that. I am shocked that I know so much less about writing than I thought I knew. I knew it wouldn't be a breeze but, I did think it would be much less painful than it is. Now it's starting to leave me feeling a whole lot of doubt about whether or not I could actually write a novel. The above picture is how I feel today. :)

I think maybe I should go back and take English 101. (Actually I am going to, I've made up my mind.) Maybe if I took this class I would understand so much more than I do about making sentences. Right now every time I write, even this blog, I wonder if every comma is out of place. I use commas the way I do because that's kinda how I talk I think. When I go back over what I've wrote it always feels right to me. I feel as though I'm walking in the dark and stumbling over objects that I didn't know were in my way now.

I love to write but I want to be good at it. I love to tell stories of my life and stories of my family. Not just the awful parts but also the good parts. I can honestly say though, there aren't a lot of happy times growing up, but there are a few and those are like precious jewels to me. So I will trudge along (LOL) that's how it feels right now. I will not stop learning and I will not stop trying to get better with every sentence that I write. I thank God for the teachers I have because they are real good at their job and really help guide me.

This is my goal, to write like this!